Not yet a closure.

I’d watch a million sunsets for you
I’d live in sunset for you
I don’t want to fall in love with the end
I don’t want too late to be my friend
Willing to face my fear of forever
I keep falling in this trap
The trap of constantly altering the relationship in my head and by my acts
I keep searching for painkillers and I give them the need to find painkillers
Ants under my skin
Rhinos under my skin
It hurts so much I want to cry
It still hurts
Why is my painkiller taking so long to arrive?
It needs to arrive or else I’d have to search for a killer
Growing tired of untouchable sweet romance
I discard the wishes for a minute and again come to life
I get the chills running through my body
I feel the passion within me
I feel my heartbeats
I can hear them running around my body
The clouds already decided to invade my eyes
And they did
Heavy clouds trying to get rid of the rain of my past
Clouds that have blinded my sight for joy
I need a closure to this longest wait
I need it not if it’s not like it is in my head
I’ll slam the doors with my patience
I’ll open them up with my patience.